Sunday, August 14, 2011

I Still Miss Her







I miss her. Unfortunately I will probably never see her again and just hope I continue to see her in my dreams. I have missed her for most of my life and it seems to be my fate that I always will. I may give up blogging. At least I still dream. And for now I'm still listening to my playlist "Love Forever"

13 comments:

  1. Don't give up!
    I don't know what you are talking about but music helps through everything, maybe you will like some of my favorite artist? These songs are very sweet:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCCK2wbStEk

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjLLzNxhFpA&feature=related

    hope you find happiness

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  2. @MalibuMara, Thanks. I did listen to those songs and do like the videos you posted on your YouTube channel. Sorry I haven't felt up to blogging or commenting much lately. I am / will be making another, most likely futile attempt to be in touch with her very soon but have almost no hope, feel depressed, miss her very much, and it looks very unlikely that it will ever change.

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  3. I really hope you don't give up blogging! I know a broken heart can be very painful, but we'll miss your posts and awesome comments. Hope you feel a little bit better today!


    Camila Faria

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  4. @Camila, I've sent cards, presents, flowers etc. to her on almost every holiday there is, and she hasn't taken my calls, called back, written back, or even acknowledged that I exist over the course of the last 13 months. It was her birthday just recently - to me, it's the most important day in the world. I sang "Happy Birthday" on her answering machine. I didn't expect a reply, but I've loved her since I first met her. I've felt this heartache since she slipped away over four decades ago. It hurts much worse whenever my hopes of ever seeing her again grow more faint. I'm not feeling better, and just try to cling to the lyrics in Dido's "White Flag". Sorry I haven't been commenting much recently, but I'm still feeling very depressed.

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  5. I feel so sad for you, I wish it could have turned out differently. I appreciate you have shared your thoughts and experiences with me over various comments/ posts. I think that never seeing/ have contact with someone that you miss so much is the worst possible situation so I feel for you. But I hope you don't give up and that you continue blogging.

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  6. @ Imogen, I doubt I can ever give up - I will always love her - but It makes it very hard for me to muster the energy and the will to go on blogging - especially believing that she probably does not approve - although since she hasn't contacted me or responded in any way for well over a year I have no way of knowing for sure. I sent presents and a card on her birthday and sang "Happy Birthday" on her answering machine but there was no response - only the sound of silence.

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  7. Yes, I’m on twitter! I’m @_CamilaF_ ♥

    Camila Faria

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  8. I am SOOOO sorry. Heartache is horrible and I'm so, so sorry that you are missing someone so dreadfully much. I don't know what to say beyond the fact that if you think you still have it in you, go try and find her and find out once and for all if it's done. If it is, grieve her and then try to consider her a lovely chapter in the story of your life. This is hard, I know from experience, xo hugs to you.

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  9. Don't give up blogging, darling!

    xoxox,
    CC

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  10. aw what a sad post :( im sorry

    <3 steffy
    http://steffysprosandcons.blogspot.com

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  11. oh, please don't give up! I know how painful it is to miss someone. And at least you still have your dreams to go to.

    Do open up your heart to new things, you never know what surprises life may bestow on you.

    Hugs:)

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  12. aww! i think i know what your talking about but i wont say it in public, if you ever wanna vent or not, email me, or not .
    hope you feel better soon , they say heartaches dont last forever!!! you have such a great heart and thank you for your alwyas comment
    <3

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